GOD…Do you believe? Part 1: My Search for Enlightenment
For most of my life, I struggled with Christianity and religion. I grew up in a family that rarely went to church. We never talked about it, never went to church, and never prayed before a meal. I never had an opinion on it until I was 18 and in the Marine Corps. I witnessed my fellow Marines happy and talking with them, they attributed it to GOD. I figured so many people could not be wrong.
I started my quest for enlightenment. In the process, I visited many churches, many denominations—Methodist, Baptist, Protestant, Catholic, Lutheran, and others. I met many people in all those churches. All of them seemed nice at church. They would introduce me to other people. Before long, I shook many hands and made some friends. Being the observant type, I noticed how they acted in church and when they were at home or out with friends. A lot of them supposedly live their life by the bible but actually, they live by their interpretation of the bible, when it is convenient, or not at all. In my opinion, if you say you live by the bible then you are a Saint and commended for doing so. However, as I pointed out previously the majority of people that I have met did not. They went to church for forgiveness of their sins but then they went right back out and commit the same sins repeatedly. If you were living by the bible then you strived to improve yourself not to commit the same sins.
I had to keep in mind that I did not meet all of the people in the congregations so I based my findings on a subset of them. In my conclusion, it seemed that people that called themselves “very religious” that go to church every Sunday and practice their faith were mostly hypocrites. After meeting all of them, it put a sour feeling within me.
I know I know…you’re going to say that we are not all like that. That may be true and I commend you who are devoted to your religion. Unfortunately, I have failed to see that. I can honestly say that I have met only a handful of people that have wholeheartedly committed their lives to their GOD. Some have said you cannot judge a mass by a few but I found that I could get a consensus from my findings. Many people will defend their religion and try to get me to go to their church but I have done all that. I had to find what is right for me. The ferocious conflict continued inside my heart.
All that being said they all had one thing in common. I felt that my heart and soul did not belong there. I thought not everyone fits into the conventional religious denominations. It’s time I tried something else. My quest continued.
STAY TUNED FOR PART 2.